selamat tinggal pujaan..

tgh sdap2 wat asignmnt smbil tulis blog.. ttiba ak tdgr lagu ni kat tv3.. pergh mmg menusuk kalbu lg!!!ape pun ak tujukan la lagu ni wat bekas kekasih ku Ahmad Faisal bin Ismail... nape taip nama pnuh? saja je.. mn la tau satu hari nnt cucu aku akan tgk blog nenek dia nih...kalo boleh nk je ak upload gmbo dia kt sini.. tp xpela.. nnt mata aku sakit..

Penyanyi: S.Jibeng
Tajuk : Selamat Tinggal Pujaan

Selamat tinggal pujaan
Selamat kau berbahagia
Hidup di samping si dia
Kasih baru yang kau puja

Kini tibalah masanya
Ku tetap bermohon diri
Agar kau tak bercuriga
Pada ku kau lupa saja

( korus )
Tak guna bersedih
Tak guna kau kenang lagi
Biar ku bersendiri
Membawa perasaan hati

Selamat tinggal puspita
Selamat kau selamanya
Hanya satu yang ku pinta
Senyuman manis yang mesra

hari ni xtau nape...ak asik tdgr lagu yg seolah2 sdg memerli aku... tp xpela..bler dipikirkn balik.. why must i suffer? life must go on...
mungkin slps ni aku akan dapat yg jauh lebih baik...lbey hensem,ahaks!!

perasaan ku

dulu aku kau puja....
dulu aku kau sayang..
dulu aku sang juara...
yang selalu engkau puja...

kini roda telah berputar....

kini aku kau hina..
kini aku kau buang..
jauh dari hidupmu...
kini aku sengsara...

roda memang telah berputar...

mana janji manismu...
mencintaiku sampai mati...
kini engkau pun pergi...
saat ku terpuruk sendiri...

mana janji manismu...
setia sampai aku mati...
kini engkau pun pergi...
saat ku jatuh dan sndiri...

aku lah sang mantan....


ok, ni la lirik lagu yg sesuai sgt ngan jiwa ak skrg... memang menusuk jiwa dan raga btoi... kalo karaoke konfem tangkap nangis ni!

sedey...kecewa...sakit ati... benci...speechless.. rasa cm kna tikam... sume ade ar sng cite!!kna tipu idup2... selama ni ak tgk cite dlm drama je kisah bcinta ngan tunang org.. kekasih kawen ngan org laen...kna tggl bodo2 cmtu je...ak igt tu cuma drama, tp ble ia btul2 jadi kt ak...

oh bulan

kan melayani diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
aku akui cemburu
mula menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain....

biler org ckp...dh la, cr laen jela...

cakap mmg sng...kalo lah ia semudah itu...

kalo lah ak leh jd bionik, jd ingatan ak slama sthun stgh ni akan terpadam cmtu je...

ble blaja physiology, buku ckp

"heart is one of the strongest muscle in the body"

tipu.... if heart is the strongest muscle, why it is easily broken???

sigh...

cat

OK, for ur information, this is not my cat. i dont know where it from, why it here(at my home) and what it want from me. diz cat come to my house abt 8 am to 5 or 5.30pm (waa, office hour ma) almost EVERY DAY! and do nothing.. it juz sitting in my kitchen, sometimes living room n watch the rats playing. so lazy,haha!!

now i'm thinking to give diz cat a name, bcoz i juz call it 'Kucing!!!' or 'Meoww!!' or "Woiit",haha..

dunt know which one suitable..

anyone want to adopt diz cat? i like diz cat, but i dont want to adopt it as my cat bcoz i dont know how to! i dont want diz cat suffer bcoz get a terrible owner like me, hehe..

p/s: i'm not sure whether diz cat is normal or not, i never hear it say 'miau' .

USB cable

yes!! juz bought new USB cable, now i'm able to upload any pic from my hp, huhu

my old USB cable? dunt know where is it, mybe some rat eat it n die, haha

extremely exhausted!!!

this week make me crazy and extremely exhausted!!huhu..

plan of diz week:

monday: submit OB exam paper, study nutrition

tuesday: exam nutrition, write another OB assignment

wednesday: submit that assignment, make correction on OB proposals

thursday: assist a fashion show

friday & saturday: correction on my dissertation and OB proposal again

sunday: research exam paper

sunday nite: karaoke with my classmates, haha!!!

dating: next two weeks :p

future planning

what a boring day.. actually i got a lot of assignment to do, but i'm not in the mood.. keep thinking of how to making money, find a good job and good husband, haha. i decided to find only part time job, coz i'm afraid i cannot give my full commitment on my study and work, huhu.. there are two main things in my mind now.

First: Build a kindergarten+daycare

this is not a joke. this is a very potential industries, parents don't mind spending a lot of money for their children, especially education. If possible, they want the 2-months baby go to school right now,haha.. Now my mom is running a day care. Fortunately, our day care keep expanding bcoz we are located at a very strategic location; near two schools. But the schools still in progress, maybe will open next year. then we receive a lot of request from parents to make learning packages/kindergarten for their children. so the first thing to do is go to Unit Pendidikan Swasta, Jab. Pelajaran Selangor and ask them the full procedure ,huhu.. i go next week, too much work on this week.

that the first thing a.k.a long term planning.. the 2nd thing is my short term planning.

Second: Find part time job. I running out of money now, huhu.. juz got one suggestion from one friend, write a novel. hahaha.. this is quite impossible.. why?bcoz i don't like to read novels, especially about love n live happily ever after, fantasies or 'jiwang2 karat'. really not interested. i dont think i have talent in writing, even this blog i 'm updating once a week:p writing article? erm still in consideration. then i realize that my only passion is teaching..i spending two years as a part time tutor during my degree..so when i saw a vacancy about tuition teacher in Putrajaya.. i called and meet the owner.. I'm accepted and will start teaching next week, haha.. simple job, but i like it.

about the novel.. i'm still considering it, it is a very good idea, bcoz i got many stories, experience in my mind right now, but i don't know how to convert it into a novel/articles etc.

so that's my future planning..

two things made me upset today..

i'm a bit upset today.. about two things. first, i went to TA One Tower this evening 3pm bcoz someone called me said that he got my number from jobstreet and ask me to come to hear the briefing about job camp on last monday. i'm not really interested so i'm not going on that day. but then he called again and asked me to go and juz hear the briefing. then i said ok la, i'm going today(wondering what type of company that begging their job candidates to go for briefing). i asked what actually these program about? he said that u will be given training for two months and after that u are guaranteed to get a job with salary range abt RM1800++.. then i said ok, i'm going.

when i juz get there, one guys (he also the candidate) give me a form to fill up. then suddenly come a girls with beautiful feet (she wear short skirts, everyone notice it, dont think me lesbian ok, i'm straight, haha) give some briefing. erm actually this 2-months program is like professional diploma abt communication bla..bla..bla.. they will teach u english communication skills and wht so ever ( i dont remember it), with RM500 allowance a month. she said we are also guaranteed with a job after that. are u sure? then one girl ask whether we can choose the company? she said no, it is depend if the company got vacancy or not at that time..erm this statement made me curious, wondering if there is no job available at that time?huhu..

then the girl with the beautiful legs said if we are not interested, we can go home now, i'll give u 5 minute to think. after she said that, all the candidates takes their bags and go home.. thats the funny part, and the most funny part is when i'm looking at the girl's face,haha.

that the first thing that made me upset.. the 2nd things happen after that...

after leaving that place, i'm going to klcc (opposites with it) and changing my clothes and drink ribena. i sms my cayang said that i'm waiting him there (he juz working nearby klcc). what makes me upset is i'm still wondering that is he really likes me? is he interested with me? or maybe it is only my feeling? we met, eating together, sitting besides the pools and chatting. then i realize something, when we are talking, i'm looking at him all the time but he never looking at me, i mean eye contact. i dont know why but it makes me upset. it makes me feel that he is not interested with me, or mybe he want to hide something from me? when we want to go home, he juz saying bye2 and juz go without looking back. why dont at least he says something romantic that will make me feel happy and insist to see him again? or maybe he loves me but he dont know how to show it?

guys, when u love a woman, show your love, dont think that girl will understand what is inside your heart..

art of seduction

well these two months seems like i'm very tired being a good, shy girl and juz sit and see my boys taken from other gurls!! two my ex-boy is married now and the recent one (juz describe him as Z) juz treat me as his special friend or 'teman tapi mesra' bcoz i knew he still looking other woman although i'm dating with him almost everyday!huhu..

so the good girl is going bad now,haha.. not so bad la, juz being a bit naughty.. i dont know which part that i'm still lacking. mybe i'm not pretty, i know i'm overweight (but wait until next two month, i'm sure i'll lose atleast another 10kgs,haha). i'm not too short, juz need 6inch more to be a model :p 

erm then i do some post mortem (dasat tuh) with one of my friend and suprisingly found out that mybe i'm lack the skill of seducing? OMG is it true?haha it sound funny right? but honestly i admit mybe it is true.. i dont know what actually the man thinks? what do they want? so i googling and found this article. i summarize it for u ok..

first:

do some makeover

if u not happy with urself, u'll have no/little confidence. makeover process mybe took a long period. i start makeover myself gradually since 2007. if u compare my previous picture with recent one, u'll see the differences. 5 years ago, i'm a fat girl, with oily face and acne, 'gigi berterabur' (i dont know wht it called in English), dark girl and etc.

so i try to remove all the acnes by using traditional maskers (guava leaves with rice flour) and in a week, all the acnes gone!! i use goat's milk scrub for my face and body almost a year until some of my friend said 'eh Nora u are very fair now!'haha...

for my teeth, i spend about RM2500 to make crown and bridge (dont ask me what the hell is that, ask ur dentist) and in juz 3 weeks, i become a new person. my confidence level is arise and i keep smiling and showing my teeth everytime someone taking my picture..:p

so the biggest problem i had now is only my weight, i still need to reduce atleast another 10kgs. 

i juz lose 10kgs in 10 weeks starting this february(that bcoz i'm depress my ex left me to marry his fiance) and now when i'm happy, i start gaining 2kgs again,haha.. so plz someone left me again so i can lose another 10kgs, kui2..

next:

read his body language

how to know he is interested? read his body language bcoz his body signals are better indicators of how he feels about you than anything he may actually say verbally. Look for his eyes contact and trust your instincts. Look for his small gestures and tone of voice and you may find out what he feels towards you. but be careful bcoz some men are good playing with his gestures and face. he made u feel that u re the one for him but actually not bcoz he still play around with other girls - i called them 'sweet talker' or 'player'. this type of man dont like to marry or engaged or anything that will tie him. so if this 'player' asked u to marry him, better hire a private investigator,haha.. 

next:

flirt,flirt and flirt..

the important part!!!

the meaning is keep him interested and aroused (oops!!)

dont ask me how to get him aroused, coz i dont know either but remember that men are highly dependent on your signals to reassure them that they are 'onto something' good. And ladies, playing hard-to-get isn't particularly attractive to men unless you're sending out enough signals to assure him that you are 'gettable' and that the chase will be worth it in the end. Don't be too obvious in showing your interest in a guy. Ignore every now and then. But don't be so cold that the guy loses interest in you. Giving him space would be a good option for both of you. ermm.. i learned the theory, but how to do that?haha... 

next:

Smell Good
Make sure you smell good. Apply a nice perfume that is not too strong.  do not spray the perfume directly on yourself but spray it in front of you and immediately walk through the mist. This is to makes that the perfume is not concentrated on some places and you smell good overall.

(ok i want to but nice perfume now,haha)

ok enough for today, if i found some tips again i'll post it here and share with u..now i'm trying to apply this theory and i'll tell u the results later, hahaha..